Have I gone nuts?
It’s about what do you do when you having nothing to do
Where you go when you have no where to go
What do you say when you have nothing to say
Who do you see when you have no one to see
Who is it that’s home when no one is home
Who do you trust besides yourself
It is a matter of faith
No one’s in charge
Every soul’s carrying his own weight his own wait
What if there’s nothing that needs fixing
I’d be sitting blessed not stressed
But then, I’m not stressed?
So there’s still some hope
Hope is state dependent
It isn’t the same as imagination
Probably the opposite of despair lack of it
I have little time for being anxious these days
It’s like being overwhelmed as in right in the whelm and not so much over or under it for that matter
Faith is quite the same as excitement and is the downslope, dispirited or less sanguine feelings as valiant I hang in the balance plurality the same as unity or diversity isolation community death rebirth above below dark light hello goodbye
posted by J @ 4:35 pm
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(there I got my address in there first, so I can't be asked who I was/am in case I forgot to sign)
U know, I get a strong feeling, that this comment of mine might get deleted.. reason? its not gonna be a comment at all.. Y? haha.. Im gonna hijack Ur comment space and make it my blog space.. Haha.. now how intelligent is that? and the reason for that? oh yeah, 'cos Im sure U're gonna read it.. Im gonna be glad.. reason? not b'cos U're gonna read what I write, but 'cos after reading it, I know that I made Ur life a pee-wee(yeah that same pee) bit more miserable than I am.. reason? 'cos U made mine a wee-pee(I think its weepy, thisucks.. whatever) bit more miserable..by making me come this far and then making me read that blog of Urs..
after a half day of reading one persons full life history in his blog, playing games in miniclip.com, responding to consultants mails, showing the manager my half-filled shit of the appraisal/goal setting workbook ( which as he so rightly pointed out, does not consist only of name and emp id ), checking out the new show-offs(girls) joining in office, and an overdose of Rahul Phondke, I come here.. and find THAT.. Have I gone nuts? Nuts to U, dear Lady! Nuts to U!!! Eat and Die.. and be miserable after that.. 'cos I am ... reason???
MORE????????????????
Hmmm… I sure have a lot to say… so here I go…(in the order of importance)
Man with no name, did ur parents forget to give u one or did u jus Shift+Del? Do u at least have an email identity? Yeah, I’m asking!!!
Is Rahul Phondke 6’2 +some more inches tall??? And if he looks good too, can he move over to bangalore from chennai?
Do u wanna kill me when I say, I’m not one tenny-weeny bit miserable now… yeah I read it all… reason???
Wow! I’m impressed man, u sure did a lot of stuff today.
I didn’t do anything very different today… spent 3 hrs reading mags (I get paid for doing that), taking numerous prints of my appreciation mail, bagged a gift from a client, boss gets wild that I get noticed, mailed a guy every 5 mins n he’d mail back every 1.5 mins…
Oh boy! Life’s great!
Did i tell ya, yeh dil maange more. i hope u understand this much of hindi or r u like one of those tams who say, aiyyo, apidi na? :-p
Ok first of all, that counter on Ur page.. is false.. I probably refreshed Ur page 50 times today, 25 yest, and perhaps less day before.. reason? Aww!!! shit!!!! mainly 'cos Ur comments section sucked like hell and I have to stop the refresh halfway to read the next comment.. and that I did, some 3 times, before the super fast net connection told me it had the page...
2. Ur comments section still sucks.. theres something wrong in the code.. that hell thing is not off, if I know it clear!!! Im damned sure.. hell is there for everybody, isn't it???
3. My parents probably didn't realise their son wud bring them to grief like this and so prudently they lemme chose one.. in those dark ages itself.. In these days, I chose thisucks!
4. Rahul Phondke is a jovial columnist or whatever.. http://server1.msn.co.in/funnybone/funnyindex.asp gives U a lot of his articles and he is funny.. his latest one on how to write a bestseller in 7 days was absolutely hilarious... his size, age, height, weight and aif he wants to come to b'lore, I didn't bother to check..
5. If it was a lot of stuff that I did today, then I wanna take rest someother place.. thats for damned sure.. U only have to play a couple of games in miniclip.com and U'll feel like opening that drawer by Ur wrokplace and disspearing into that...
6. listen, how abt we switching jobs?
and if U get a mail from a guy every 1.5 mins, and U reply only after 5 mins.. shhhaaawwwrrrryyyy.. I, Hypocrite.. maybe, but I sure dont like 'em way hypocrites behave..
7. Hey Baby.. hahhaa.. aiyyoo.. saala, mujhe hindi achi tara aatha ( thats hindi aatha ) hai.. kyon ki, do saal, mein ek bahut cultural diversity wala college mein paduthahoon.. and then ek gayumein ek kisan raghuthatha..
8. how abt removing Ur blog and making it a chatroom??
Hey not bad, u r pretty organised… answering in points n all. Or maybe u have too much of time.
Ok
1. yeah so wat if that counter is false… u wudnt sue me will ya? Even if u did, I have this x-bf who was a layer cum accountant cum publisher to save me n kill the world.
2. where do u think u’re gonna go when u die?
3. ur parents didn’t give u that… good for u… I got a name I don’t like :-(
4. Rahul wotever… will check him out tmrw… I gotcha leave the workplace soon. I’m so goddamn efficient that I’m done with my work for the day already… n no body out heer wud dare gimme more stuff to do.
5. ur place or my place?
6. no way! U must be one of those zillion software freaks doing boring stuff, the stuff I do I soooooooo much fun!
N that mailing bizness, u jus didn’t get it… he mails me every 1.5 mins cuz I’m the only super cool babe around, but I get mails like these from lemme see, maybe 5 diff ppl… so I haveta mail back 5 of these guys every 5 mins. Phew! That’s a whole lot of work!
7. Appudiya? I’ve heard that “joke” before… I lived in chennai for 5 whole yrs. n there was tis guy who thot I wasn’t a tambram n he …. (chuck it!)
8. ok. (that’s like the 198th “ok” in this e-space)
ok.. ( that makes it 198 + 1 )
Im not organized.. I'll give that credit to that damned demon succubus.. she's the one who wanted me to communicate that way, 'cos I was talking all over the place.. or rather she was.. whatever.. ok??? (( thats 200.. Yoohooo!!! ))
1. hehehe.. ok.. U have this what? Layer?? hahahaha.. he lay-ed U??? hey come on.. how abt a blog on that?
2. Heaven! I know a Shortcut, to cut a long story short!
3. everyone's got a name they don't like, even those Rahul's and Pooja's think their names are too cliched.. atleast I got a first name I like.. the rest .. hmm.. no comments!
4. check him out, if U're into copyright-ing business and magazines and all, he's the one U want to read..
5. what? the drawer? U get into Urs and I get into mines.. see if U can get the comp also inside..
6. hahhaa.. and balls to U.. Im no s/w guy, though I consider it to be a hobby.. I must say U're in a neat job.. something like that is always a pipedream.. oh yeah and its green grass!!!
Too bad! I thought I found another bench-er.. unfortunately not.. besides, I have my friend no_reply@yahoo.com.. he sends me a mail every other minute.. BAHHH!!!!
7. U LIVED in chennai? not anymore? where did U stay? U say U're a tambram, so U stayed in Tambaram? hahahha.. I've this really uncanny knack or coming up with these stupid jokes, for which even I puke, but still I say it.. but no one else is allowed to puke.. they can atmax stare at me.. thats the max!!! so U're now in Bangalore or what? if u do.. hey how abt a pub sometime, but only if U tell me U'll get drunk with me.. no U staying sober and watching me slide down the chair..
8. No one asks me to stay here too, hell my manager comes at 1 and leaves at 4.. oh yeah, how abt this, U take my job, U can have my manager too.. he's gonna resign soon for sure, and he doesn't care what the heck U do.. my job's real cool.. want it now???
actually--the counter's probably accurate--I know that a number of people who read my blog follow the link and read J's as well. --plus she's getting so many more comments lately :-p
(on an unrelated question from another hemisphere--how bad are things in Chennai with respect to the tsunami?--media coverage here is sketchy...
-another J.
Man with no name…1. ok that was a typo… make that LAWYER. Does that fit now??? N if u noticed I generally don’t write abt my bfs… life gets difficult that way. Cuz every guy thinks, he’s the ONLY guy. And its best if they think that way:-p
2. heaven??? No wonder we r like… poles apart. Hell is soooooooo coooooooooool man, that’s where I’m going.
3. Yeah, but I do have a problem when ppl cut my name shot n that becomes my mom’s name. things can get rather embarrassing at times u know… so wat’s urs? P**********************k
4. Its NOT copyrighting… its copywriting. Makes a BIG diff.
6. Oh yeah? Then u a ‘hard’ware guy eh? Makes no difference to me. Ok fine I know wat u do for a living… u send junk mails rite???
7. yeah I lived in chennai till abt 3 months back. n then I kinda got bored of livin alone, partying with the same ppl at the same old places, so I decided to move in with my folks in Bangalore.
Pubbing? Yeah cool anytime. But it takes a LOT for me to get really high. But if u agree to pay for me and if I don’t have to go back home… I guess I will!!!
8. Is ur boss interesting? Do they pay well?
The other J…I think the tsunami thing’s pretty much under control. There’s sooooo much of media coverage here that it makes me sick.
Ok, then I'll get the hell out of that race.. not that I was there in the first place, anyway... ( combingin this with the unnumbered point bet 7 and 8...) well, I was hoping we'd make it something like we still remain anonymous and meet up.. without letting out names or places of work et al.. and then have a good drink, have a good time, and leave.. guess its not that way U want it.. (* those shrugging shoulders again *) besides, a pitcher and I go down.. Y wud I want to pay for a tank-y???? the fun's both ways right? or is that old hypocrite playing games here too??? or is there a hint I missed out.. I can't talk complicated language U see.. not my fault.. nor my gift..
3. Heck!!! U've been to Jupe's blog huh? Damn!!!!
4. ok.. U missed on the layer, I missed out on the right-er.. cancels it out...
6. Im not a hardware guy too.. I work in a s/w company, but yet am not a s/w guy, h/w guy, network guy, hr, peon, toilet cleaner, auditor, payroll.. nothing. This division of work does not usually get done by a s/w company, but then this is such a revolutionary company!!!
7. U partied in chennai??? Thats a surprise... so U're a kannadiga then???
8. My Boss? hahhaha.. he'll help U fill up resumes and give U mocks and tell U to find some other company.. all that he can do, he'll do to stay away from work... and help U too.. Pay I dont know.. Humans are never satisfied with anything and everything they get...
Other J.. Tsunami..dont ask me.. JJ (pun intented) has now asked for 4800 crores for relief.. I bet she thinks crores has totally 5 0's... I think this time she's planning to adopt some of the filmstars and get them married too..
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This is getting difficult… checking ur comment. Answering point by point… well not too diff cuz I’m already efficient n organised n WOW! I’m so cool.
3. Com’on how do u think I landed up at ur blog then? If u don’t wanna know much abt me, don’t speak to ramki…
I’m fine with being anonymous n u can continue being wot u like. The plan sounds gr8 too. So suit urself.
7. wats da surprise??? Don’t u party there? I thot u gotit… am tambram.
8. ur boss cant be worse than mine can he? Mine’s gay :-( ask me how I figured out.
Ha!!! Its difficult huh? finally U get the point.. get haloscan or something.. Ok Cool one???
so thats how U came to my blog huh? I thought by mistake U had typed in a wrong address, or perhaps U were irritatingly bored and searched the net for sucking things.. are U the thangatchi or something that ramki refers to??? The plan sounds so gr8 too.. so suit urself.. perhaps my english needs some sabina washing, but I just didn't get what U're saying.. either my plan sucks and U're asking me to shove it up my backside.. or its super cool(as my plans are always.. that is before they flop) and U're pitching in.. which one is that?
ok.. U're bad at spellings... tambram? as in the railway station or U're a tamil brahmin? either ways so what? ohhhh.. U're a tamil brahmin but Ure house is in bangalore.. right? no back home in chennai I become a good guy.. more like jim carrey in me, myself and Irene.. got an image to maintain.. so show all my wickedness only to the comp back home...
hey how did U figure that out? U danced naked before him and all he did was ask U how U managed to grow that big boobs??? anyway mine's not.. he's 33 and he's still single..
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This is getting wee-bit complex. Lemme get things clear…
Ramki is NOT my brother. Actually I asked him to be one, (since I don’t have one) but that was after I met him n he said he’d be anything but my brother. So I’m no body’s tangachi.
Plan sounds gr8888888888888. But u haveta decide if u wanna ask so many qs or u want me to be mysterious. Tambram is different from tambaram aint it? Anyway, u finally gotit.
I’ll tell u how I figured out stuff abt my boss when/if we meet.
:-)
good.. now U speak english I understand.. Ramki and Ur relation - check!
plan goes ahead - check! we remain mysterious ( I use we, I take it that Ud wanna reciprocate too ) or if I can ask the questions abt U, iM fine.. we don't ask any questions that make us reveal our identities.. not even our names.. we just meet, drink, have a great time ( hopefully ), talk shit, split the bill equally, and then decide if we wanna do it again.. how does that sound??? Deal???
If yeah, U can pick the date and time, Im free eternally, even during office hours.. I can pick U up, but I can't drop U, U dont wanna be caught in an accident with me drunken-driving.. but once a pitcher is in, I might change my mind on that too..
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Lol… and u still don’t understand english.
Tamil le solanuma? I’m sure u wudnt wanna hear me talk in tam, cuz ppl say its pretty bad.
Ramki n i r NOT related. Though we’d wished we were, but that’s like a year back. now, he thinks I’m … wotever. Forget him.
Plan sounds fine to me too. But then u live in chennai rite n I think I live in bangalore. So wudnt it haveta be some weekend?
ramki and the relation.. I missed out on some lines there... "ramki and the relation; or rather the lack of it"
do U read my blogs at all? I dont live in chennai.. used to.. some 5 years back... I work/live in Bangalore.. alone.. so U need to lemme know the time and date..
how abt downtown, lets save some money during the happy hours.. buy one get one free.. but thats only for the beer.. not sure, if U go with HOT too..
OMIGOSH!Guess wot? I spilled coffee all over my boss’s pant while reading ur comment. U live in bangalore???
Oh sheeeeeeeeesh, and wot were we rambling abt chennai all along for?
Ok... so how abt tmrw? I dunno where downtown is. How abt purple haze? Its jus a few buildings away. U temme the time.
hahhaa... wasn't that what that area was made for.. for Ur boss and the coffee that is.. hehe
we were rambling about our purveegams.. anyway purple haze sounds neat.. how abt tomm.. hmm... lemme see.. office gets over at 5:30, but that ain't a problem.. hmmm.. how abt 7pm tomm night??? and fyi, if U keep coming down that road, U'll cross Brigade Road, and immdly after that, U'll hit downtown... But I've never been to purple haze, so incase U know the place, lead me around.. I have no ego whatsoever (but I guess U kinda guessed that, since the money splittin' huh??)
Catch ya tomm then.. oh yeah, next problem.. how do I know its U? how abt a code word? 'Lic-ku pathinaalu maadi'.. 'Vazhapazhatha urichi thaan saapadanum' - Take Ur pick..
Purple haze is like jus opposite zero G. now if u don’t know where that is, its in the abn amro bldg. And if u still dunno where… well, find out!
My office gets over at 5:30 too. So u wanna make it a little earlier than that?
I have no idea wat those kannada lines mean. so think of something else.
hey I know where purple haze is.. I was talking inside the pub that is..
and that was tamil.. I said "Lic has 14 floors" and "U shud peel a banana to eat it"
anyway how do we recognize each other?? Any ideas?
Ok then 6:30 it is at purple haze.
I’ll be standing down so if u find this woman who u think seems remotely like me… come on n ask, are you the real slim shady? N if she doesn’t slap u… u know its me!
U ok with this???
sounds cool with me.. Y dont U give a description abt Urself.. dark, short, very close-cropped hair.. etc.. etc.. I know Ur a tambram, so I guess I shud know what to expect.. just tell me if U're fair or dark..
anyway U shud see a guy with hair on his head, grown like it was shaved two weeks back, nearly 6 ft, medium built, looking damned old than his damned age..then U know its me.. (what shall I wear, black jockeys????) and Im not gonna ask for the slim shady and all, lest someone overhears me and thinks my nuts are stuck in my throat or seomthing.. I'll ask for J.. and U can ask for the man with no name.. but hell, U're just next to the office, so try and come at 6:30 and dont make me wait, then I'll become real nervous and hop on to the dance bar right opposite...
6:30 sounds too early for a drink, but what the hell, I'll come empty tank... for a fill up!
ok... (lost the count now)
i'll probably tell u wat i'm wearing tmrw. will that be ok?
n if i come n dont find u there......... u r a DEAD DUCK!!!
Sounds damned cool.. catch U tomm.. got a training.. no good one at that.. but I'll keep my promise for a booze..
and dont even THINK abt not making it.. 'cos Im gonna fake some things here to make it..
stomach ache at training programme? u'd better fake it well enuf. cuz i hate waiting n did i tell u i'm a cannibal? Anyway, now that u know... be there.
hey I've bunked it.. what the hell! I had an interview also to take care of.. which also has got over.. so tell me what dress Ure wearing.. make it something very easy to identify, like nudity or something.. oh yeah, Im damned easy to spot.. not many guy are tonsured... 6:30 this evening at purple haze..
Good for u. maybe u figured out that u r a bad actor.
So if u find this woman in black u jus cant stop staring at, around 5’7” with bizarre hair... u know its me.
HAA!!! Great!
Hey listen.. U better wear an attitude that goes with the witch thing that U're describing.. 'cos I just like to sit around and listen to weird and weirder things, like philosophies and shit like that..
oh yeah! only one ground rule, from my side that is! no getting angry, at whatever the shit! from both sides! not that Im planning to get U angry or anything like that, but just so it saves us both the heartbreaks.. deal?
xxxcuse me, MWNN… no ground rules n shit like that, ok?
N I’ll be wat I am… I’m not gonna take extra effort for u, putting up an act or anything like that.
I never have heartbreaks. cuz I don’t have a heart. U take care of urs.
hhhmmmm.. Naeram!!! Ok...
nalla nerum :-)
ok! ( eeks.. I've caught it now )... Im leaving now.. no manager, no work, no nothing.. will see U at 6:30 pm.. pUrple haze.. !!
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