Wednesday, May 04, 2005

There's a hole in reality through which we can look if we wish to

I cried again last night.
It’s just been 3 days.
And the last time I promised myself that this is the last time.
But I know it will come back to me again and again.
I can’t run away from it.
I’m getting to be an insomniac yet again.
And this time it’s not love or lust.
I feel captivated.
Free with broken wings.

What would I do if I wasn’t supposed to be where I was?
A serene night on a solitary peak overlooking a private beach, overflowing with furious waves sounds good.
Now if only my mind could play some grunge rock.
And there was God to talk to.

Dear God,

I need Prozac.

J

40 Comments:

Blogger Jax said...

Oye J!! Yeah you need Grunge rock and a shot of Tequila! Why don't ya join me for one Friday evening?

- God

5:11 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Prozac!:O

12:13 am  
Blogger arvindiyer said...

Waaazaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

_ GOD

12:15 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

You depressed??? Can I help?

12:55 pm  
Blogger manuscrypts said...

but u r supposed to use it sparingly - the hole and prozac!!

4:23 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Wow J U got loads of pepul givin U loads O advice

*raises eyebrows*

4:28 pm  
Blogger anumita said...

Like this blog. Reading through archives now...

5:02 pm  
Blogger SmartOxymoron said...

God certainly seems to have a lot to say. Cant say God doesnt care, now can you? LET GO. FLY. Take a moment by yourself, and ask why youre somewhere you dont want to be.

6:50 pm  
Blogger sanguine said...

came here via anumita's blog. really liked ur posts.
you take care. stuff does really finally pass away . this too shall.

12:53 pm  
Blogger Rapunzel said...

ok, take this from someone whos seen both sides.prozac's no good (and i should know) maybe you should try the other deal.

9:47 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

confused.... too much!
hey dear wos prozac! wish I cud help by doing something

9:50 pm  
Blogger . : A : . said...

"A serene night on a solitary peak overlooking a private beach, overflowing with furious waves sounds good."

Yes, it definitely does.

6:50 am  
Blogger Elixir said...

a hug.

3:28 am  
Blogger J said...

Jax ~ One friday, sure!
Buckwas ~ :(
AI ~ Wot in the world r u doing there? u know where rite? :)
God ~ Thank u, but i'm doing gr888 now... its a bright monday! :)
Manuscrypts ~ Yeah rite! :D
Anon ~ Oh really? Sheesh man, i didnt even realise that!!! :p
Anumita & Sanguine ~ Thanx for dropping by :)
SmartOxy ~ Aaw, thats just me and my yo-yoing mood swings... dont bother :)
Rapz ~ Point noted :)
Swaps ~ Confused? u or me? :D
A ~ :)
Elixir ~ A Bear Hug :)

12:06 pm  
Blogger manuscrypts said...

u still looking?? :)

1:58 pm  
Blogger J said...

oh, u know wot? i have this theory that even if u've found wot u're looking for... u shudnt stop looking. u never know wot u might miss ;)

2:51 pm  
Blogger arvindiyer said...

AM BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK....Now u update;)

11:16 am  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

You also need a good day like Ur birthday! Many more happy returns of the day! have a good one!

12:56 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

hey...very interesting blog!! glad i came across it. Will be here often.

9:41 pm  
Blogger j said...

If I gave you the prozac, would you blog again?

(not to say that I could, actually... *looks around shiftily*)

11:37 am  
Blogger J said...

J, keep it... i'll come to u when i need it. And it may not be too far :)

4:43 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

where art thou?

5:13 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

yeah..you always seem to leave wrong urls wherever you comment!! took me some doing to reach here again...

6:46 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

yup i do..and it makes for an interesting read..your archives...stunning imagery thru words...abstract and yet...advertising, huh? p.s....one more thing, and dont barf on me for that, but why does it show 5 comments when there are actually 23?

7:14 pm  
Blogger Corny name said...

Prozac schmozac...
a lil jumping around should do you good...

Hello there, this is the Diabl020, back from his sabbatical..
NIce to see your still up and running...
(I really don't remember being here before,... just followed a link from my comment box.) Nice place though..
I'll be poppin back in here soon,.
-DIabl020

10:43 pm  
Blogger J said...

Calvin ~ hehe... thanks for taking all that trouble... not that i care much... but anyways :)
And DONT ask me why my page behaves the way it does... some things cant get more erratic :-p

Diabl020~ i know... i think a change would do me good. u know any place where they sell that? :)

1:15 pm  
Blogger Elixir said...

JJJJ WHERE R UUUUUUUU

11:41 am  
Blogger manuscrypts said...

*looking around* :)

3:01 pm  
Blogger Ad astra per aspera said...

Tell me about it. *rolls eyes.
been there, doing that.
Nice blog. Reading through the old posts

4:50 pm  
Blogger J said...

heyyy... thanks for dropping by! :)

5:53 pm  
Blogger SmartOxymoron said...

Ping!

11:23 pm  
Blogger Fist said...

Hmm, I wonder where you've gone.

6:46 pm  
Blogger Dhimant Parekh said...

To answer your question posted on my blog - Yes.
(Do you notice the glint in the eye being masked with nonchalance?)
Haha.
About the absowhatever, well, whatever.
:-)

7:01 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Seriously... isn't it time you got off Prozac and onto more important things? Like blogging, maybe.
SOxy.

11:23 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Waiting for someone?

A

10:50 pm  
Blogger SmartOxymoron said...

Four months and not a word. Maybe it was a car. Or maybe something worse... Ennui? God forbid.

7:59 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

6 shots of vodka, men you dont know about, prozac, etc. all lead to situations you wished you werent in.
You write beautifully, I wished you wrote something about nature or some other topic.
love,
someone who cares

12:33 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

nice post. well.... umm.... wot to say now..

2:20 am  
Blogger Unknown said...

Good post

7:10 am  
Blogger Unknown said...

Great post, I enjoyed reading it.

Adding you to favorites, Ill have to come back and read it again later.

10:50 pm  

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