Monday, September 12, 2005

“I still don’t know why I am telling you all this…”

III

I was walking down the streets. Lost in my thoughts. But heard something coming. I called out to him. He looked at me and smiled. His last smile. He couldn’t hear me. The truck ran over him.

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IV

My brother and I have done everything together. Yes, every single thing I can think of. But he doesn’t remember a thing. Have I don’t anything wrong?

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V

He talked about a fetish of his. I wouldn’t believe him. I loved him so. I insisted that we got married. He still loves me. He has my ‘living skull’ in his closet. The rest lie in the back yard.

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VI

I finally feel beautiful and wanted. Thanks to the doc. Thanks to the special medicine he gave me. Drugs some call it. Even my memories are fleeting moments.

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VII

I took him away from her. He’s all I have. He’s all hers. He’s never wanted me. But no one can take him away from me now. He’s drugged and roped in the bathroom.

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VIII

I killed my twin. You don’t know how much she hated me. Much more than I hated her. But everyone thought I was making it up all this while. And now my folks believed me when I said it was an accident.

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IX

I’m still guilty about the hit and run accident. Even after 25 years. The cute three-year old had survived. But I killed him. Shhh… you are the only who knows now.

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To be continued…

36 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Just one more coming up in this series? :-(

4:56 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

SHOCKING! :-O

5:24 pm  
Blogger chaos said...

I still don't know why I am reading this and waiting for more :D ...

7:39 pm  
Blogger diana christine said...

hmmmmm......
mmmmmmmmmmmmm.........
wondering, pondering, thinking, reading, listening...

8:15 pm  
Blogger Once the Conman said...

its just part of the plan. You got no choice but to follow it. Nothing is in your control. You only think it is.

9:03 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

hahaha... U're so funny!! really! I was laughing my behind off, after reading this u-know-wot..

9:14 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Another one of posts which gets me started on thinking.. thinking if these words are to be taken at face value.. or with inferences and deeper insights..... these thinking sessions always end up withthe realisation that I am too dumb to understand subtle hint hidden between the lines......

Prateek
http://prematurearticulation.com

12:19 pm  
Blogger Sudipta Chatterjee said...

Uh-oh, when I first read this, I thought that you had lost your marbles :) Well, now I guess they are chillers all right

2:55 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

poignant !

4:39 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

shakingly,morbidly interesting!

4:47 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

MORBID ....Girl I am scared of you brrrr
and now you are gonna hack my password? You are on roll I say :)) LOL

5:04 pm  
Blogger . : A : . said...

This is gripping. Get deeper as you read more ...

5:56 pm  
Blogger Ram said...

the secrets are becoming deeper and morbid as they grow in number..

10:23 am  
Blogger arvindiyer said...

No wonder, saw that my shrooms were missin...NEVER TAKE IT WHEN U ARE ALONE...Bleh...women they just DON"T LISTEN!!!!

1:07 pm  
Blogger Manu said...

DeMeNtEd!
Freud would have a field day out in ur head I hope u realise!

8:04 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

i liked them..you are one storyteller...

8:27 pm  
Blogger nothing said...

lovely..err..not in the literal sense of the word perhaps. wonderfully gothic. but..err..drugged and roped in the bathroom? collective "Ulp" on behalf of the masculine half of humanity.

11:48 pm  
Blogger m.fletcher said...

Really engrossing, compelling. I like your style, I love your style it's right up my alley; dark and ironic, telling and revealing, keep it coming.

1:13 am  
Blogger Elixir said...

:) can i have some more please?

12:46 am  
Blogger @$#!$# said...

mein gott! what has come into you!!!

on the other hand, the post simply rocks!!!

great work!

7:44 pm  
Blogger A Chrysanthemum by any other name... said...

Wow... you should dedicate a separate blog for this deliciously, wonderfully cheaply titillating series. Put some graphic sex and violence in it too.

7:36 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

vertebrae-shattering!

10:00 pm  
Blogger That Girl said...

hey! thanks for coming by...i like your writing!...VERY out of the box!!!


:)

7:22 pm  
Blogger Brood Mode said...

dark and delicious. a little more might be an overdose. yet, keep 'em coming!

1:49 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

long time
no post

4:56 pm  
Blogger anantha said...

dark... and cold.....but i am enjoying them. :)

6:47 pm  
Blogger Pincushion said...

Gosh!
errrr...is this for real?
if not..then why do I have goose bumps all over??!!

dare I say i'll be back ;)
something says, I will..hehe!

8:25 pm  
Blogger Rob said...

I'm confused or am I psychotic again... I thought I was your twin and I killed you... hmmmmm

9:12 pm  
Blogger gvenum said...

All in the day's work. ain't it:)

8:13 am  
Blogger A Chrysanthemum by any other name... said...

Hey.. a small bangalore bloggers meet tomorrow evening. Call me on 9845597342 for details.

3:58 pm  
Blogger nothing said...

tag!! you're it.

10:19 pm  
Blogger Arvind said...

oooohhhh.... shockingly interesting!!

10:39 pm  
Blogger the cowlick said...

Oh Wow! you're kidding, right?

7:11 am  
Blogger Jax said...

Updates pleeeeeease!!!
- Your fan!

1:34 pm  
Blogger A Chrysanthemum by any other name... said...

So the story took a really bad turn and u died or what? When r u going to blog again?

2:20 pm  
Blogger Elixir said...

errr did u change ur site url again? *stricken look*

10:54 pm  

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Thursday, September 08, 2005

“I don’t know why I am telling you all this…”

II


I was always in need of money
For the small fancy stuff – the wine, the eating out, the sexy lingerie, the flashing wallets with loads of cash in it
It wasn’t as if I didn’t have any or I would die without it
But I never seemed to have enough
And I had my own means of acquiring it
I didn’t earn it, nor did I steal it, but it’s not mine either

13 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

I = U ?

6:44 pm  
Blogger diana christine said...

...i feel i'm in the middle of the middle and am eager for your next bit of light for where i am headed...

9:58 pm  
Blogger chaos said...

IF...
there was just another zero at the end of the amount displayed in the bank statement ;0

well J... i guess that's the story with almost everyone :D

12:15 am  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

That would mean , you have got yourself one rich boyfriend Ms Jayaraman.

11:08 am  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

enjoy the booty..

1:28 pm  
Blogger Sudipta Chatterjee said...

Hmmm... collecting hafta, lately?? :D

1:53 pm  
Blogger arvindiyer said...

Congratulations...!!

3:33 pm  
Blogger Manu said...

In all its perverse, I think stealing lingerie is a turn-on. Some things can't be helped ya know!

4:35 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Now that is a spellbinder of a finish...will there be a Part III telling us how you acquired it? Or shall I let my imagination loose ..;)

Thanks for the compliments :)

4:49 pm  
Blogger . : A : . said...

Riddle me this, riddle me that?

;-)

6:45 pm  
Blogger A Chrysanthemum by any other name... said...

Actually not totally feminine. A nice mix.

11:37 am  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Why are you tell me all this?

4:57 pm  
Blogger phatichar said...

:)

7:27 pm  

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Tuesday, September 06, 2005

We are all exposed.

The curtain is pulled away, mask falls, the hypocrisy disappears.

It all starts with… “I don’t know why I am telling you all this…”
It’s a simple statement that has a greater impact. On them (?)
It’s something you would have never guessed by merely looking at them.

Every other person has his/her little secret.

And then they start…
It usually starts with the little sins.
I listen carefully.
Try and validate their perspective.
Pacify them when they look devastated.

I don’t know what kind of a door I am opening.
I don’t fully understand why they were hiding it for so long.


To be continued...

12 Comments:

Blogger Jax said...

And "let me tell you this frankly". Does it mean, they were being dishonest?

6:39 pm  
Blogger arvindiyer said...

Ok and ur point is? *hehehe* how be u? AM back!!

7:09 pm  
Blogger . : A : . said...

Very intriguing build up. Can't wait for it to be continued ...

:-)

7:52 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

haaayy.. someone is in love.. either that or its a marriage parade ... :P

8:40 pm  
Blogger chaos said...

its damn interesting to know secrets of others...

on the sides... i hope you haven't joined "Landmark Forum"... i heard they do similar stuff... ;)

12:21 am  
Blogger Golden Words said...

u comming out of the closet??

2:03 am  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

For every door, there's a window..
it need not be closed all the time.

2:21 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

we are all impressionists somewhr..and i guess nobody can hide it as long as u can..theres no hypocrisy newhr.

4:39 pm  
Blogger diana christine said...

and "just between you and me" usually isn't...

i am eager to see where you go with this...

3:24 am  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Continue..

10:47 am  
Blogger Sudipta Chatterjee said...

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2:18 pm  
Blogger Sudipta Chatterjee said...

Or maybe it is a great ploy to actually tell the lie :D

2:19 pm  

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Monday, September 05, 2005

It's been a while since I took a test. This one says:

Your Blog Should Be Purple


You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything.
You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey.
You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.




9 Comments:

Blogger Sudipta Chatterjee said...

What the heck!! It told me exactly the same things as it did you!! :) Great minds think alike, eh?

7:05 pm  
Blogger @$#!$# said...

hey same for me...

is this one for real?

9:27 pm  
Blogger diana christine said...

me too...but then we are all here to write about ourselves creatively, no? yes, creative minds are the same color...

6:45 am  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I am a 'cheerful' blogger according to this test and my color is 'yellow'. I tend to agree ;)

9:54 am  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Good at least this test has more than one results. But I'm not taking it up!

10:05 am  
Blogger Arvind said...

which agency are you working in?

2:34 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

anons are colorless

4:11 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I second that comment.

4:29 pm  
Blogger Jax said...

I am Orange.

6:38 pm  

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