Thursday, October 27, 2005

I feel great these days. It’s nice in a way to return back to sanity. Everybody’s been noticing the change. It’s visible, and they aren’t blind. They are even talking about it. I have nothing to worry about, cause it’s only a change for the better.

But when I’m alone (which is not very often, of late), I think about the whole thing. And it’s kinda scary.

What if I get addicted to it? What will happen if I stop? Will I get back to my ‘normal’ self? Will I be unscathed, able to get back to what I was and carry on with life? That’s what gets me thinking when I cant sleep every night.

I feel completely content and comfortable with whatever is happening to me right now. Everything’s perfect. Dunno if that’s good. I’ve never been this way before. I’ve never been happy with what I have. Not that I don’t want more in life now, but I don’t feel the need to do something interesting everyday, the way I used to before.

Hmm

But why the hell am I thinking about all this crap if everything’s fine?
Maybe it’s not.

9 Comments:

Blogger the cowlick said...

Oh wow! I could have written exactly the same post.. just that i don't have the guts to. Sometimes you just have to shut your thoughts up in order to be "happy".

8:55 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

everything's gonna be just fine

10:31 am  
Blogger Jax said...

Hey J! I am happy for you :) Just sit back and enjoy!

3:48 pm  
Blogger A Chrysanthemum by any other name... said...

So are u more comfortable being comfortable or are u more comfortable being unconfortable. That is the question.

6:46 pm  
Blogger Once the Conman said...

Just a phase girl...
times change... people like you... don't.
You'll be you for the rest of your life - you - your gift, your curse.
Who are you?
Lol...

7:44 pm  
Blogger arvindiyer said...

Make up ur mind...You either are comfortably uncomfortable or uncomfortably comfortable? Get it?:)

11:45 am  
Blogger . : A : . said...

Everything that happens, happens for a reason.

6:43 pm  
Blogger First Rain said...

Hey J! Hope ur doing good. Just dropping by to sat thanx for dropping by :o)

2:59 pm  
Blogger Rapunzel said...

u know....i feel that way too...ever so often...but it never goes away cos u ignore it, does it??maybe, you can stow it away for the night and the next day or two, but it'll come back some other day.i am happy with my life too.but in the dark, the real life seems so unreal and then the questions come. i, like cowlick, think i too could have written this.

btw, feels good to be reading u again!!:)

9:36 am  

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Monday, October 24, 2005

It’s been a long break.

People seem to have missed me more than I’ve missed blogging. I’ve been really busy of late. Lotsa stuff happening in my life. Ask me how I’ve been. Send me some more fan mails. With some nice rich dark chocolate and vodka and I’ll tell you everything :D

Lately, I find that I’m fascinated by the way people reveal their opinions about ‘objectionable’ topics.

What’s more interesting is the point when I figure out that expressed opinions aren’t really their very own and I pretend to listen as if I were ignorant and then they try explaining the whole thing to you thinking their fake opinions will somehow enlighten you. And then I nod my head and smile.

It’s strange when people crack jokes just to make themselves sound trendy and people laugh at jokes they don’t quite understand just to make themselves look cool (that too when it’s not the boss who’s cracking the joke). Sigh! Aint that SAD?

I tell you, people can kill just by telling a joke.

But the best of the lot are people who fret ‘n’ falter while telling a joke. Thanks to my superiour acting abilities, I resist my temptation to smile.

12 Comments:

Blogger Once the Conman said...

welcome back...
I deleted your link from my site thinking your blog's become defunct.
Well anyway...
See you around.

5:53 pm  
Blogger anantha said...

Welcome back...

8:10 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hayyy, go back .. will ya?!

8:21 pm  
Blogger A Chrysanthemum by any other name... said...

What? No more morbid stuff?

9:06 pm  
Blogger arvindiyer said...

U could have done better with ur comeback post:) How have u been and u have internet connection coz?

10:48 am  
Blogger chaos said...

lol...

hmm... interesting way of 'looking into the eyes' of ppl...

must be an experience...

u siad lotsa things happening... so... what's these lotsa things... :)

1:21 pm  
Blogger . : A : . said...

Welcome back. Good to see you blogging again.

4:18 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

It'd be a lot easier if you left a phone number behind ..... sigh ;-)

5:44 pm  
Blogger Jax said...

Yipppeeee!! Now get posting!!

Who's been telling you the jokes?? Certain Mr.A? :D

7:40 pm  
Blogger Ram said...

hello there.. welcome back.

9:36 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Certainly not this Mr.A Jax..

more than blogging, u must hav missed being missed.. eh J?

or u dont need ne ego boosters now? :-P

10:24 pm  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I missed you. A lot. Now do you feel better?

6:27 pm  

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